These past two weeks have been very hard for me, I am emotional by nature but this move has really brought out so many tears. It is the first decision I made solely for myself in 30 years, I am not use to this. I sit here writing this blog in my room and it hits me that this time next week I won’t be sitting in this room blogging but I will be over 800 miles away. In two days I will be taking the trip down with my fur babies and starting a new life and I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared.
This week I said goodbye to someone I loved for almost half of my life, and people don’t understand sometimes it does not matter the pain that was caused it still does not erase the love you have for a person. My heart hurts when I think about the fact that I am moving so far away because everything here reminds me of our old life. I do know this new chapter will bring me such happiness and the peace I need to start over. I have that heart that truly loves and cares to a fault, and I love that about me but it does cause me a lot of pain and strife as well.
I know the saying its “not goodbye its see you later”, but I at least need to say goodbye to my old life mentally. Does not mean I will cut people out but rather my life prior to my move is done and my new life is beginning. I’m most excited about my sun room where I can sit and read a book , my coco beans will love that spot ( shes a sunbather), its the little things in life I am going to start appreciating more.
Since 2019 I have really tried to take in more of life and enjoy little moments. I will get to make so many memories with my Royce, he will be my little bestie I just know it. I really don’t know what I would have done without my support system, through out these past 16 months and especially with my decision to move. It is such a blessing and it brings such a peacefulness having all this support and understanding. I am starting to believe in “manifesting” and speaking into existence what you’d like to happen for yourself and I am excited to continue doing so. So far on my vision board I made in May my move, happiness, smiling more, has happened. So we shall see what else will happen, I’ll be sure to keep you all in the loop.